He told his brother

On Sunday we went over to David and Susan's house (brother and sister in law), all with the intent of telling them. We were very nervous as we were unsure as to what the reaction would be and we do not want to cause family issues. We enjoy their company and seeing their two children (ages 7 and 10 years). Max did not get off to a flying start, and it all come out a bit muddled (due to nerves). With permission I jumped in to finish the story and explain the situation. David started physically shaking straight away and we could see the reaction of coming out was having on him. He started saying some pretty inappropriate things such as "If you see a heart doctor then you have a heart problem, if you see a gender specialist then you have a gender problem". Susan on the other hand was much better. She acknowledged that Max has always been very butch. We talked for about an hour and there were some full on moments, but it ended okay with some hugs. The conversation did flip around from total lack of understanding "you will always be Jennifer" to "you have our support." We (Max and I) are still unsure as to how it will all play out. Much of the difficult part of the conversation was about telling the parents. They did make comments about that we could not tell the parents at all, to telling the parents for us. We are worried that whatever the reaction from the parents will be, this will impact of how well David and Susan cope with it. We do assume that the parental reaction will be negative and that this will influence David (we do acknowledge that he will be in the middle of this, and that we understand it is a horrible position) and turn a mediocre reaction into a negative one too.)

We have had such positive experiences with coming out to our friends and my family that I think we forgot that negative reaction can occur. Youtube shows us that coming out to parents is generally a negative reaction.

The fallout to this conversation his Max on Monday. He looked miserable and I asked him (just before leaving to go to work) if he was okay. He replied that may be he should stop [this treatment]. I was totally shocked by this comment, and due to having to go to work we could not talk about it. I became very upset as I felt that I just did not know what has going on and how miserable he looked. We spoke on the phone a couple of times and knew that we both needed to see the psychologist. We called Vikki and arranged a time to see her, and we ended up seeing her yesterday. By this time we had some distance from the conversation with David and Susan and felt a bit better. Max totally knows that transition is the thing he really needs to do for his life (and sanity) and that he can no longer live the way otehr people prefer. We also know telling the parents is going to be hard and that this will probably go on for years, if they don't cut us out completely.

Coming out as a partner of a FTM at a new job - some thoughts

I'm just about to start a new job and I have always come out as a lesbian (since I was 18 years old), quite easily and I have never felt uncomfortable with coming out. But with Max transitioning, I don't know if I should come out as a lesbian and then correct them in a few months time? Or if I should just try now and just pretend to be straight? Or do I say I'm queer and explain the whole FTM thing? Is this too full on for a new job, at the start to tell people? I just have so many questions running through my head and I am just not sure what I should say or do? This is something I really need to think about as I have orientation today and I start the job in 2 weeks.

It is a lot easier to come out as a lesbian. People know it, people get the idea. But to say that your partner is trans, especially about the connation of what a 'trannie' is - male to female - is what people generally think about. I asked some colleagues at my other job, who don't know my private life, what does trans mean to you, what does transgender mean, what does transexual mean? (in the context of a new research area). There replies were about men cross dressing, doing drag, drag queens and gay men. Many people do not know that a transexual can be female to male or a transguy/transman. So do I have to explain it all? I don't mind educating people. It is just that I don't want to put people off at the start of a new job, especially when my job is about being someone that people can talk to about their emotions and thoughts. So ... I guess I might just go with the flow and see what feels right.